"Safe from anyone calling you out for inflicting more hurt on yourself, too, hm? Why come to be a big brand new world, if you want to know what to expect to that degree?" If she's wondering that, she ought to just ask. Best time to get a clear answer is right now. For Yelena, it's an easy decision, equal parts curiosity, concern, and the desire not to go out and start spilling her guts to anyone else. Better to keep the mess in one place.

Her turn for a short laugh, more humorless than sad. "True. The trouble is I would prefer if she would not do anything for me. I would like dying to have been off the list of options. Do you want to talk about Bill? If the answer is no but the question makes you anyways, I can plug my ears and hum." Don't come at her, she only just thought of it as an option.