maybe that's part of the problem. i was in new york for like ten hours maybe, most of it was fighting and running around i didn't experience what we saved, not really i was busy trying to finish the last real mission sensei ever gave me maybe i had it easier in your time? the future-not-future maybe it was easier not to think about this stuff when everything was new and shiny and now that this is my normal i get to spiral a little. (as a treat. i think thats what sensei would say)
idk. i think a part of me is worried it'll never get better which is stupid, SO stupid, because it already has i'm so different now from the first day i got here brains are stupid though. i wish i could turn that part off
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i didn't experience what we saved, not really
i was busy trying to finish the last real mission sensei ever gave me
maybe i had it easier in your time? the future-not-future
maybe it was easier not to think about this stuff when everything was new and shiny and now that this is my normal i get to spiral a little. (as a treat. i think thats what sensei would say)
idk. i think a part of me is worried it'll never get better
which is stupid, SO stupid, because it already has
i'm so different now from the first day i got here
brains are stupid though. i wish i could turn that part off