[He's a very gentle sort, isn't he? And he is correct; she'd been trying to reconcile that; just move ahead and Do Better. The river put a bit of a kink in that stream of thought.]

I'm afraid Akechi-kun took to all the worst parts of me. [Ruefully. A little sadly. But it makes no difference now he's gone.] If I told him I'd tried to kill someone recently, he'd only have tried to finish the job for me.