Yeah... feels like a lot of stuff comes down to, there wasn't time for it, and now there is.

[The good, and the bad. No time for fun and non-war-related learning or caring about aesthetics, no time to sit down and stop compartmentalizing a decade and a half of collected trauma and other mental issues. The good outweighs the bad, he'd never wish to go back to a life of war. But...]

I'm glad, too. It's still hard, when what's going on in my own head is sometimes scarier than aliens. But everything's so much better than it was.