I don't think it's selfish. I don't think it's stupid, either.
[He peers at the mural for a long moment, then goes to switch colours, poking through the bag until he finds a nice green. He's going to start painting a turtle.]
I've had a lot of conversations about this kind of thing, with Rue, and Hunter mostly. I used to think- maybe it's selfish to want this world or this life, when people are suffering here too, or when my family died to get me here. Shouldn't I be working harder, instead of messing around, doing fun things or going to school? It's normal kid stuff, I get that, but I've never been normal. I used to train and fight every day. What if I slack off too much, and someone gets hurt? That felt selfish.
[He draws the long curve of a turtle shell. They're facing the Krang monster, one arm lifted defiantly.]
It's not, though. I'm trying to get better at remembering that. How I feel is how I feel. Who I am is who I am. So... it's not stupid to feel like it's selfish, sometimes. But it isn't selfish. Both of those are "me".
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[He peers at the mural for a long moment, then goes to switch colours, poking through the bag until he finds a nice green. He's going to start painting a turtle.]
I've had a lot of conversations about this kind of thing, with Rue, and Hunter mostly. I used to think- maybe it's selfish to want this world or this life, when people are suffering here too, or when my family died to get me here. Shouldn't I be working harder, instead of messing around, doing fun things or going to school? It's normal kid stuff, I get that, but I've never been normal. I used to train and fight every day. What if I slack off too much, and someone gets hurt? That felt selfish.
[He draws the long curve of a turtle shell. They're facing the Krang monster, one arm lifted defiantly.]
It's not, though. I'm trying to get better at remembering that. How I feel is how I feel. Who I am is who I am. So... it's not stupid to feel like it's selfish, sometimes. But it isn't selfish. Both of those are "me".