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Truth Meme

Somehow, there is kirin on you.

Most likely, it is the fur of the kirin that was caught in the environment of wherever you’ve been; there is a stray hair on you because one was on the seat you sat on upon the train or because it blew onto the brim of your hat in the wind.

Or it may be because you met the kirin—a playful ungulate moose-sized spirit who prefers not to speak—and engaged with him and gave him a pat, or a scratch behind an ear. Maybe the kirin nosed or licked your hand because you made him laugh (it’s an adorable ‘keh keh keh’ sound).

Unfortunately for both you and the kirin (who had not meant to trouble your day like this, truly), this exposure to his dander has only one reaction, and it happens to 100% of Star Children: you are compelled to tell the entire truth. About what is less specific; you are compelled simply to announce things about yourself—your life, experiences, thoughts, opinions, feelings. No matter if it’s something silly and inconsequential, deep or secretive, life-altering or commonplace. Some may choose to do this by employing Foxi and their relic; others by finding people to exchange truth with to face to face.

When you have met the kirin’s subconscious desire for four hours, you will be free from the truth telling and the recipient of 24 hours of good luck. The good luck will be sometime in the next year rather than in the next day, and you may have no idea where it came from, but you’ll know a lucky day when you have it!

This meme is game canon unless marked otherwise at the start of threads! Threads can be used for spoons and application samples.
Assume all characters involved on this meme are affected.
Characters will compulsively state truths about themselves/their feelings on the network or in-person. Top-levels may include either/both options.
Please include prompts in your top level.
All questions will be answered with complete and total honesty. No special abilities, half-truths, or omissions can avoid sharing all of the truth.
Meme is open until the next truth meme!
After one month, you may use the kirin mechanic generally in game. It can be one-sided! All truth-telling characters must consent.

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It’s quite all right. [ This time, he didn’t even look flustered. Zechs gave him a tiny, rueful smile. ] I had plenty of admirers when I wore that mask and uniform, even if I think they mainly were drawn to the power behind my rank and the skills I possessed. Nonetheless. I was once quite appealing to many no matter their reasons.

[ Then, he frowned thoughtfully for a moment. ] I don’t wish to wear that mask again. When it shattered, I said it was the friendship between myself and Treize which shattered - in truth, it was the entire situation where I had to compromise my ideals by serving in Romafeller’s private army that shattered.

He no more believed in them than I did, and I am not angry at him for supporting them at that time anymore.

[ Soft snort. Even though he’s forced to tell the truth, this was also true; ] You likely don’t care about the political squabbles on my world. You just appreciate the uniform. It was well designed.

I care about the effect those political squabbles had on you and others, and I would not ask you to wear the mask. I can't deny my curiosity about your mask's appearance, but I'm glad I won't ever have to see you in it even though I still wish that I somehow could.

[Quattro manages to hide how surprised he is at that for a moment, but.]

I thought that it was only your feelings on the mask that would bother me, but I suppose it's impossible to run fast enough or far enough to flee from a haunting memory. I'd like to kiss some more but I'm not sure I can stop talking long enough to try.

Don’t tempt the fox, with my luck the next trial will now feature the mask. [ It was true, he did think that it’d be a new way to torture him if she so felt like it. Even if he’s joking about it for the moment.

[ Zechs was determined to help keep Quattro’s privacy. ]

We could kiss. We could fuck. You could tell me instead the lengths you’re now eager to go with my promise on hand, I’d far more like to hear that then I ever would want a secret from you involuntarily given.

That is very unfair, I will be unhappy with you if you don't also tell me the things you want me to do to you but haven't been able to bring yourself to ask for. I know you enjoy dangerous play, and pain, I've thought about going further or being harder on you than I have.

I would really like to fuck, but I'm concerned that this compulsion will cause one of us to veer into subjects that will kill the mood. Not enough to turn down sex, especially since I can get you to ask for things even if I feel bad about wanting to do that with this compulsion on you- You're very hot when you give in and ask.

[Quattro manages to sneak a quick kiss in there.]

All the fun things are in my closet, except you, of course.

I can’t help but tell you whatever truthful thing crosses my mind - so I’m also going to tell you things I want. But I’m often frustrated by my own ignorance of what that even is. The things we’ve discovered seem to be from trial and error.

[ Zechs felt a little relieved, frankly, that that’s clearly true and not an excuse. ]

I like being broken down to a point I have to give in. When things no longer feel like an option. It’s an illusion, but that illusion is - as if it is an excuse to give in, an allowance. I have figured this much out on my own.

Regardless of what we do, so long as we remain on topics which don’t distress us too greatly … [ He’s going to try and sneak in another kiss - ] … we can wait until this wears off. It seems illogical it’d be indefinite, nothing here is.

Less trial and error than you think- your excitement when I drew blood in our first bout was obvious. It was obvious you enjoyed challenges, not just the idea, but something that truly tested you.

The rest... I think I've come to understand the general shape of what you enjoy.

[Quattro catches the little kiss and returns with one of his own.]

This forced truth is a cruel mockery of what it is to truly understand one another. Both because it's difficult to know one's self and difficult to express all the complexity and nuances completely.

I wish I could have that again. I wish you could have that, even if it isn't with me.

That is entirely true and was just as obvious to me - after you had drawn blood. I hadn’t meant it to happen, and didn’t know before hand it would excite me so.

[ His eyes went wide as he spoke next, realizing something as the shape of it was voiced; ]

I wish I could give that connection to you, even if it unsettles me in many ways. You’re not meant to be shut off as you are, I would imagine. And at least you already, at least partly, understand me.

I'm not- if I were truly shut off, I would not be able to read your intent when we spar, or pick up on stray thoughts without realizing it. But, looking back, it's obvious now that the people whose company I found most enjoyable were those with some degree of Newtype potential.

Whenever we speak of this subject I can't help but think of Epyon, of the fact that you were part of a machine instead. You're clearly much more fond of your Tallgeese, but the form you take as a Myth... I worry that connection is too similar too what Newtypes experience, that you long for it the way I long for those whose souls have touched mine.

[Quattro grimaces and covers his face.]

I think it would help you let go of the past. I know I would be better off, even if it's unsettling to contemplate what would change between us, or how we might change one another.

I hadn’t been thinking of Epyon at all. [ He’s surprised in a different way by the suggestion. ] I certainly did not choose to appear like this as a Myth on purpose.

When I think of Epyon, those moments of weakness I yearn for it - [ Zechs made a face, he wanted to stop talking - ] - I think of the feeling of certainty. The idea the future could be known and controlled. The idea I could see very path, every risk, and understand its counter. I think of the reassurance of death it spoke to me.

I think of madness. Isolation. It was not a tool of connection or understanding anyone. I am terrified someone here could build it or any version of the ZERO system and I tried never to speak its name so you would not discover it. [ Zechs went pale. ]

[ But, he then sighed. ]

Change is inevitable, Quattro. The Epyon lied. We will constantly change, become new things to know and understand, and there’s no way to predict this. I wish I could let go of the past, and yet it keeps haunting us.

I can't deny a horrid curiosity towards it, even though I loathe the idea of it all the same. Even here, words fail to bring us to understanding. It would have had to interface with your mind to function like that, wouldn't it? That's the connection I speak of, not one of understanding, but the ruthless function of a war machine.

[Quattro leans against Zechs, trying to make himself stop talking and kiss him again.]

Change is the natural state of humanity, but that doesn't mean it's easy. The illusion of certainty and control is an appealing alternative to the ever-changing and unknowable present and future.

I'd be very happy, though, to explore together whatever changes such mutual understanding would bring us. If I could stop talking long enough to do so I would kiss you now, but the words won't stop and the more annoyed I am at my inability to stop talking the more words I have to say to express my feelings on the subject.

[Quattro is indeed stuck in a loop elaborating on his feelings about his inability to stop talking.]

Please let it remain only a horrid curiosity. If you were to try to bring it here, I would feel compelled toward it, like a moth toward a flame. I feel it would destroy what I’ve attempted to improve here.

[ But kissing appeared to work, if only a few moments, because Zechs would rather honestly be kissing Quattro than discussing that. ]

[ He curled fingers into Quattro’s hair. ]

I would be happy to explore that as well. You are particularly nice to kiss. It’s never quite the same. Sometimes it is almost tender, others sharp and playful - much like meeting your sword. You’ve shown me it can be more than a prelude, but an event in itself.

You've certainly turned what I intended as foreplay into a main event more than once, and I find you just as pleasing to kiss. Your skill with your mouth, your eloquence, and kissing, and anywhere else you use your mouth on me- if I didn't know how talented you are everywhere else I would be quite satisfied with only your mouth.

[Quattro manages to stop talking to actually kiss Zechs for a little longer, taking Zechs' lower lip between his lips and then gently between his teeth before kissing him more directly, even if Zechs attempts to speak while he does it.]

I believe I can only share in part of the blame there. But I do so enjoy showing off my skills. [ Smirked a little, but then - ]

[ Well, they’d successfully manage to kiss for a while. Zechs felt driven a bit to prove that Quattro’s praise was well earned, and that was best done through actions instead of words. ]

[ Made it more honest. ]

[ But after exploring his mouth with his tongue, Zechs would breathe a little, and his lips would be clear enough to say: ] If this was all the curse involved, our afternoon would’ve been much less stressful.

Indeed. Even as much as I want to keep my mouth occupied, I have to say I'd enjoy lying on my stomach and letting you show off your skills like you did that first night.

[As Zechs well knows by now, Quattro certainly enjoys everywhere Zechs chooses to use that skilled mouth of his.]

Between that and your fingers- well, that's certainly an event.

[ Zechs laughed softly. ] I'd be pleased to do that.

I have to imagine it feels quite delectable, given how you and others squirm.

[ He flexed his hand. ] And I've been diligent to keep at least one of these safe for you.

Are you telling me you've never had anyone do that to you?

[It's clearly some kind of terrible betrayal. Not letting Quattro spoil him in such a way when he clearly enjoys giving Zechs a good time.]

Oh, Zechs, you've been missing out. I wish you had said something sooner. I feel as though I should have realized, but I thought you simply had other things you enjoyed more and asked for those instead.

[There's definitely a trend in the things Zechs asks for when Quattro gets him to that point.]

That is the truth of it, of course. [ A little rueful there, but really Quattro. ]

[ They both can't lie. His lips twitched. ]

Of course I would think I might enjoy it. I haven't thought to ask. The things you press me to ask are far more adventurous and humiliating things, such as being tied down or for your hand around my neck while you ride me. [ Just as more recent examples that immediately came to mind. ]

I meant when I offer you a chance to ask for something framed as a reward- though I do quite enjoy having you ask for those more adventurous options. I'm not sure there's much I would be willing to refuse when you're so flushed with pleasure and struggle to speak for how embarrassed and excited you are.

[Quattro moves back a little, but not far, even as he pushes Zechs to lie back a little. His hands find Zechs' weak knee and pull it up onto his lap so he can massage the surrounding muscle and tissue.]

There aren't many I would trust to tie me up like that, but I think I would enjoy that, with you. And equally being cared for, after.

I enjoy being brought to a point where I am either too aroused or otherwise brought past my inhibitions and doubt where I can admit such things. Even if I feel I shouldn't enjoy it, which I also realize is a false judgement because I would not judge you in the same position. I understand what I feel and think do not make any logical sense, and that makes it all the more frustrating and embarrassing for me to come to terms with it all.

[ He allowed Quattro to push him back, looking at him with clear interest. ]

[ And immediately blushed when it's a knee-massage he gets. Still, he didn't complain. It did feel rather nice, the surrounding tendons stiff with the cold of the season. ]

I would tie you up, and do a great many things to you. But - as selfish as it makes me - I won't be able to bring myself to harm you intimately the way I ask for in turn. I apologize. Merely imagining it already has me feeling cold, and I cannot say why I am unable to give that to you as you do for me. I ... I don't know why. [ His lips twisted in frustration. ]

Emotions follow no logic but their own, and seldom make complete sense. I'm glad you'll allow me to do this to you, too.

[Quattro enjoys massaging Zechs like this- it's a very different kind of intimacy than sex, but still one he enjoys greatly. Especially when he can feel stiff muscles slowly relaxing under his touch.]

You are a kinder and more gentle person than I am. I do feel compelled to ask further because I wish to understand you more; Is it the idea of the pain I would experience, or the idea of causing harm. I would not mind trying things that cause pain in the moment with no lingering wound, but I have no interest in asking you to cause bruises or draw blood- outside of our fencing bouts.

I trust you. [ Simple, blunt, and without a shred of hesitation and embarrassment for that confession, either. ]

[ Zechs frowned. ] I don't believe that's true. And neither do I believe that - kindness or cruelty has any logical connection to sexual interests. You do not do those things because they are things I dislike, after all. It would be a kindness if I could perform as desired even if it involved pain. [ Logically, that followed to him. ]

I don't know. [ No - he thought about that and winced, it was immediately untrue. ] No. Imagining it ... it is the idea of the pain you'd experience. Which makes no sense, given what I know of my own self. I'm ... [ It's so frustrating. Why this contradiction? ]

I am certain it is true, even though I enjoy you thinking better of me.

[Quattro tips his head forward and allows his hair and sunglasses to hide as much of his face as possible, and focuses on the feeling of Zechs' knee beneath his hands, but it's not enough to stop him.]

I don't do these things because you dislike them, that's true. But I've never- no, I felt a little guilty about leading men on my own side into an ambush, but even shooting at unarmed civilians who were in the wrong place at the wrong time and simply trying to flee didn't bother me.

I don't allow myself to do things like that any longer, because that is not who I wish to be and not who I am. But caring about the fate of people whom I don't know... that is not something that came easily to me.

I think words fail me here, that I don't feel I can convey the difference I perceived between what it was like for me, and the guilt and pain I know others felt in similar situations but which I didn't feel.

[ Zechs was quiet for a moment. ]

If it's not something which comes easily to you - if you are still determined and resolved choose differently because that sort of man is who you do not wish to be ... that is what is admirable. It is challenging for you, and yet you persist. You are motivated to be better, not due to discomfort - but your own sense of what is right. That is all incredibly admirable, Quattro.

[ He sighed when a particularly rough knot of muscle is unbunched, and then continued; ] There is not an intrinsic good or evil in any of us. There are only our choices. You have chosen to be better, and that proves enough to me the sort of man you are.

By that logic, you must accept my admiration for your choice to turn away from your plan with Libra.

[The smugness in Quattro's voice at turning Zechs' own logic against him is clear.]

We're complicated beings, but just as there are choices, there are natural inclinations and preferences. I appreciate whatever it is in you, that is uncomfortable with the idea of causing pain to someone close to you no matter how much it might be wanted. To me, that says there is a gentle soul in there regardless of whatever you've been through that led you to violence.

[ Zechs blinked and then sighed. ] That logic follows. Even if I find it difficult to see myself in the same light.

[ And it’s even more difficult to see his own soul as gentle. For a moment, he closed his eyes. ]

It’s easier to acknowledge a preference, than trying to view my soul as gentle. I once had worked hard to rid myself of my gentle nature.

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