Truth Meme

[folkie]

Truth Meme

Somehow, there is kirin on you.

Most likely, it is the fur of the kirin that was caught in the environment of wherever you’ve been; there is a stray hair on you because one was on the seat you sat on upon the train or because it blew onto the brim of your hat in the wind.

Or it may be because you met the kirin—a playful ungulate moose-sized spirit who prefers not to speak—and engaged with him and gave him a pat, or a scratch behind an ear. Maybe the kirin nosed or licked your hand because you made him laugh (it’s an adorable ‘keh keh keh’ sound).

Unfortunately for both you and the kirin (who had not meant to trouble your day like this, truly), this exposure to his dander has only one reaction, and it happens to 100% of Star Children: you are compelled to tell the entire truth. About what is less specific; you are compelled simply to announce things about yourself—your life, experiences, thoughts, opinions, feelings. No matter if it’s something silly and inconsequential, deep or secretive, life-altering or commonplace. Some may choose to do this by employing Foxi and their relic; others by finding people to exchange truth with to face to face.

When you have met the kirin’s subconscious desire for four hours, you will be free from the truth telling and the recipient of 24 hours of good luck. The good luck will be sometime in the next year rather than in the next day, and you may have no idea where it came from, but you’ll know a lucky day when you have it!

• This meme is game canon unless marked otherwise at the start of threads! Threads can be used for spoons and application samples.
• Assume all characters involved on this meme are affected.
• Characters will compulsively state truths about themselves/their feelings on the network or in-person. Top-levels may include either/both options.
• Please include prompts in your top level.
• All questions will be answered with complete and total honesty. No special abilities, half-truths, or omissions can avoid sharing all of the truth.
• Meme is open until the next truth meme!
• After one month, you may use the kirin mechanic generally in game. It can be one-sided! All truth-telling characters must consent.

Comments

ava starr * mcu * myth

[decohere]

1. foxi text post @ boo

sometimes i think i make things harder for myself on purpose.

2. home in puca park

"Haven't seen anyone in days..." Ava admits far more casually than she'd like, glancing away. "I'd prefer to be aggressive so you'd leave, since your presence is making me nervous. But I'm actually feeling a bit lonely."

[ricochetingbullets]

Dex had gotten a bit more used to Ava after living as her neighbor for close to a month. Her personality reminded him of an angry, hissing alley cat most of the time. And while she still resembled that to some extent, she seemed far more open than he was used to.

There was an amused expression on his face as he listened to what she had to say. "This is a change. Usually I'd expect a scathing insult or threat of bodily harm by now."

[decohere]

"I seem unable to make threats that I don't fully intend to commit to, at the moment," Ava admits with a slight huff at his clear amusement at her expense. "I rather people think I would harm them more than I actually want to do so. Because it keeps them away."

Ava crosses her arms a bit protectively over her chest, feeling oddly vulnerable that she can't seem to stop herself. "I don't know why I'm telling you this. I would prefer you not know it."

[ricochetingbullets]

Dex had suspected that he and Ava might have had a bit in common. While she was a bit more vocal about it, he'd noticed she was just as willing to keep people at arm's length as he was, and what he knew about her personally could probably be summed up in the gift list which he'd been given. This just confirmed it for him. "Keeping people away is a good tactic. All they ever do is disappoint or hurt you." That was the BPD talking, creating unrealistic standards for people to live up to that they never could quite meet in Dex's mind.

"Seems like you're in the sharing mood. Anything else you want to get off your chest?" He was curious to see if this open book attitude would continue or if Ava would clam up again.

[decohere]

"That," Ava agrees, because it is a rather large chunk of it. She has plenty of experience in being exploited and betrayed, especially by those she foolishly trusted. "But also I'll only disappoint and hurt them." Like Bill. Who had put up with so much of what she had done, still was trying to help her... and for what? For her to keep endangering him by association.

Ava takes a small step back, guarded, except her mouth doesn't seem to get that memo. "I'm pretty awful. And not worth knowing." And it stings a bit, that it comes out as the truth. At least the way she perceives it so, reinforcing itself in her mind. "I don't know how to fix it."

1

[faceblocks]

any chance u could quit doing that

[decohere]

not sure why it's any of your concern, but no the habit is far too ingrained that i don't realize until after the damage is already done.

[faceblocks]

bc im nosy
i like being a smartass
and its right there to read
and sometimes i do the same thing

[decohere]

i typically prefer not to divulge much about myself because it's a security risk.
but i understand the need to be nosy. it's good to gather information on threats.

do you? what do you think compels this behavior?

text | un: incendiary

[fogsong]

Do you think you deserve to be punished for something?

[decohere]

it's not quite that. but i don't feel as if i deserve much of anything unless i earn it. when it's too easy it feels like a trap, something that just as easily can be taken away.

[fogsong]

What does it take for you to earn something in your mind?

[decohere]

struggle and sacrifice. fighting against something or someone for it. overcoming odds and obstacles. i don't know, as long as it's not just given.

2

[white_widow]

That is certainly the last greeting Yelena had thought she'd get, expecting something much more along the lines of being told to fuck off or being pointedly ignored entirely. In that maybe a cosmic joke way, again, it was more effective than aggression would have been at giving her pause. Curiosity, as usual, wins over making a quick about-face and walking right back away.

"Is that meant to be a joke? Or are you drunk? Because that is a very weird thing to say. Well, not the nervous part, that makes sense, but wasn't not seeing people for days the point of the whole hermit act?"

[decohere]

"I don't drink. Not much. I don't like how it tastes, or makes me feel."

Ava withdraws slightly. It's bad enough to be freely admitting to things she hasn't fully come to terms with, but having it called weird or a joke makes her even more self conscious. "And I don't like how you make me feel either," she doesn't like the woman having that power over her.

"Of course it's the plan, as intended. It's not an act. But sometimes it gets to me, when I've spent too much time alone with my own thoughts."

[white_widow]

"Okay, fine. I can understand that. Seems like something you would be more likely to say to a near stranger if you weren't sober, that's all. Especially since it's making you look miserable."

Huh. She actually hadn't meant to say that last part out loud, herself.

"Seems like an act. Sorry, but it does. What do you mean, how I make you feel? I'm not anyone."

[decohere]

"Of course I'm miserable," and she looks even more so for having to confirm it. "I don't want to say it to you at all. I don't even know your name, and yet I remember every word you say because they're so-" a deep breath, because she has no idea what word is actually going to come out.

But she has to finish the statement. "Provoking. Like no matter what I say, you're just going to twist it and make me feel even worse for it. And I keep replaying it in my head and no matter what alternate responses I try to come up with, I always lose."

1 | un: psylocke

[serendipitously]

I'd ask why you don't just stop doing it if you recognize the habit, but it'd be hypocritical of me.

[decohere]

typically don't recognize until after the fact, and by then it's easier to just commit to hole i've dug.

why do you suppose, you too?

[serendipitously]

Oh, definitely me too. Hindsight's a real bloody bitch, but it's easier to just keep committing. Move straight on to making the next choice that leads down to the next hole. Then you don't have to think of why you're doing it.

Do you ever think of the why?

[decohere]

the why was more clear before. i had something i was actively trying to achieve, to save myself. everything else just felt in the way.

here? because it's a path i'm more familiar with navigating. when it's me against everything else, and i can survive through spite.

when i don't have something to fight against, it's just me that's the problem left to deal with.

1.

[moseyin]

What's that mean

How on purpose

[decohere]

i like to be deliberately difficult, on principle. but a lot of it is more subconscious self-sabotage.

[moseyin]

[People really be out here just knowing these kinds of things about themselves]

uhhhh that sucks

How do you get that to stop if it's subconcious

[decohere]

first you have to recognize the pattern. evaluate what choices you made that affected the outcome and admit that you weren't merely a victim of unfortunate circumstance but an active contributor to your own struggle.
then when you encounter another scenario, you have to make the deliberate effort to step back and reevaluate what your first instincts tell you to do, and choose differently.
if you were indeed looking to change. i'm not sure if i'm ready for that.