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Texts From Last Night
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Very difficult, yes. Exactly. If not entirely impossible.
No, I understand that. I do not know what to say to help with it, but I do understand it.
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have you managed to make any friends. outside of... our community?
i don't either.
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No. I have not really tried, I do not want to deal with the eventual horror. And in the last year, I have hardly talked to the few people that I do think count as friends.
Although. Just before I came here, I did meet someone who stayed friendly, even though I was there to kill one of her heroes and she knew it. That was nice for the brief time it lasted.
Well. We are neither of us stupid, so we will just have to have this conversation again until we figure something out, I think.
It is not a mess you have to deal with alone, okay? I promise.
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so were you punishing yourself, the way you had accused me. by distancing yourself from your friends? were you afraid they could not understand what you were going through?
why are you making such efforts with me, if you were distancing yourself from others.
... what was she like?
addressing it at least feels somewhat more productive than continuing to suppress it. so i appreciate you do not view these conversations in vain.
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Why do you think I recognized it so easily?
I don't know if I was scared that they would not understand or if I was scared that they would and the understanding would break me further.
It is easier to see that it just amounts to choosing to keep yourself in pain when it is reflected back at you. And. Well. Since I agreed to honesty for this conversation, talking you reminded, reminds, me what those first couple years of freedom felt like.
She was - young. Recklessly honest, recklessly optimistic. Reckless in everything, maybe. It should have been extremely obnoxious, but it wasn't so bad.
It is a start, and that is not small or in vain. In my opinion.
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fair. don't think i was quite so receptive at the time.
so like a feedback loop only amplifying the pain shared.
don't think i ever really got the chance to live quite so recklessly. can see that being refreshing, for a change. when we were trained to be so measured in our approach.
:)
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No, well, I had not given you good reason to be receptive, at the time.
Yes. You get it, on both counts.
I do not think I can still claim not to be reckless, but in those specific ways... It was to some degree tempting.
I do not want to say something that might make you want to retreat but I do want to point out that you have been vulnerable about this, having this conversation at all, even if it was not physically vulnerable. So you are capable of it, and now, you have done it. Freely chosen to, even.
And from my perspective, I do not think anything bad happened as a result.
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but the youth usually benefit from not having a life full of learning the hard way quite yet.
you know, you're right. nothing bad happened. and maybe i feel a bit better for it, one less thing to hold on so tightly about.
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Yes. I cannot even imagine what that type of being young would have felt like.
Would it count as something bad happening if I make a comment along the lines of 'now trying to hold on to a person so tightly for a minute and see how you feel?' I will even resist including myself as the suggested subject, it is just such a perfect set up, the way you said that.
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... it's not the sort of thing i want to force. or can really know when i'd be ready for something like that, until the moment. otherwise it won't feel natural, just an exercise. and i'll associate with such. not comfort.
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I was not really serious, I would not actually encourage rushing it. The phrasing just lent itself to that reply too easily. If it ever sounds like I'm advising you to force something like that, I promise, I am either making a bad joke or badly explaining, never serious.
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i admit i am slightly bad at recognizing and understanding jokes.
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There was no way for you to know it was, not over text, and I should not have made it anyways.
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